Fashionista? No. Old Fashion? Yes

Kalo ditanya soal fashion, make-up dan semacamnya, saya akan langsung cepet-cepet teriak: NGGAK NGERTI!

Yup...

Bener banget. Saya termasuk cewe' yang bisa dibilang "buta" soal fashion dan teman-temannya. Tipe old-fashion gitu deh. Nggak pernah tuh yang namanya update soal tren fashion atau make-up yang lagi in atau yang lagi populer, hehe..

Ada banyak "bukti" yang nunjukin kalo saya ini nggak ngerti mode atau fashion. Contoh paling simpel bisa diliat dari gaya berpakaian saya ke kampus.

Fakultas saya termasuk yang paling casual di antara fakultas yang lain (maksudnya terserah mahasiswa-mahasiswinya mau pake pakaian apa, bahkan pake kaos, celana pendek sama sandal jepit atau teplek aja masih diijinin ikut kuliah), tapi saya masih termasuk mahasiswi "rapi" tiap kali kuliah. Di saat temen-temen saya santai pake kaos, celana 3/4 dan sandal teplek, saya masih pake celana panjang, blus, sama sepatu sandal. Dulunya saya pernah juga kuliah pake wedges atau kitten heels, tapi setelah banyak dikritik sampe dipanggil "tante-tante" gara-gara style saya yang kaya' gitu akhirnya saya stop :D Oke...mungkin saya masih pake kaos juga kadang-kadang, tapi kaos yang saya pake sering-seringnya juga bukan kaos model cewe' yang unyu-unyu atau ngepas badan. Saya malah kurang suka tuh sama kaos yang ngepas badan. Dibuat gerak kurang comfort, makanya saya pakenya juga kaos longgar, yang (rata-rata) ukurannya lebih besar 1 size dari ukuran pas saya. Udah gitu saya juga kurang pinter mix and match atasan sama bawahan. Saya termasuk cewe' "sembarangan" kalo pake baju. Maksudnya apa yang menarik waktu saya pertama kali buka lemari, ya itu yang saya pake. Sering tuh saya pake atasan yang kurang cocok sama bawahan, entah itu modelnya atau warnanya. Jadinya ya udah bisa ditebak --> fashion disaster.

Nggak cuma gaya berpakaian saya yang nggak up-to-date, tapi appearance dan gaya dandan saya juga nggak kalah parahnya, hihihi...

Muka saya pas-pasan banget. Kasarannya gini lah. Kalo saya di tengah-tengah sekumpulan cewe', saya bukan cewe' yang akan dilirik pertama kali atau bikin orang lain tertarik (ini juga yang jadi alasan kenapa saya orangnya minderan), hehe...

Well...kadang saya pake make-up juga sih kalo ke kampus. Standard lah. Cuma pake bedak warna natural, eye-shadow tipis, mascara, sama lip gloss. Saya dandan juga sebisanya aja, yang penting bisa bantu muka saya nggak keliatan pucat atau kucel. Karena faktor "sebisanya" itu, saya pernah dikritik juga sama temen saya yang lebih ngerti soal dandan. Dibilangnya, "Kamu tuh pake mascara-nya gimana, sih? Nggak rata, tuh. Trus juga kenapa nggak pake eye-liner?" Waktu saya jawab kalo saya nggak bisa pake eye-liner, saya malah dicibir dan dibilang ndeso tuh, haha... No problem sih, kan emang kenyataannya saya nggak bisa :D

Sebenernya nggak masalah kok mau punya muka pas-pasan atau cantik. Semua bisa keliatan menarik kalo dari cara berpakaian sama cara dandannya juga "pinter", termasuk saya juga. Permasalahannya disini ya cuma 1, saya termasuk cuek, bahkan nggak peduli masalah penampilan, padahal dimana-mana yang namanya cewe' pasti pengen keliatan "cantik" atau "menarik", kan? Dengan nggak pernah update soal fashion atau make-up, itu justru bikin saya makin "buta" sama hal begituan. Saya juga bukan tipe cewe' doyan nyalon. Jarang tuh yang namanya saya masuk salon, kecuali buat potong poni doank. Perawatan simpel macam luluran atau creambath aja jarang banget, apalagi yang lain-lain macam facial, hair spa, manicure, pedicure, de el el, hehe.. 

Kalo udah begini rasanya pengen banget punya asisten pribadi yang ngerti masalah fashion sama make-up dan bisa bantu ngerubah penampilan saya. Ya at least biar enak diliat dikit lah, hehe... Tapi sepengen-pengennya saya ngerubah penampilan, tetep masih ada hambatannya. Yang saya maksud disini ya kaya' daddy sama mami. Mereka termasuk rewel sama cara berpakaian saya dan sering banget ngritik. Bahkan pernah saya pake celana 3/4 sama sandal jepit ke kampus, saya dikritik habis-habisan sama mami. Dibilang saya nggak pantes kuliah, pantesnya hang-out. Padahal udah saya jelasin kalo fakultas saya itu free and casual banget masalah pakaian. Mungkin mereka begitu karena mereka sama-sama guru, tiap hari dituntut harus rapi, jadinya saya juga harus ikut-ikutan rapi. Saya mah cuek-cuek aja. Yang penting saya kuliah ya niat kuliah, nggak peduli mau pake pakaian sesantai atau serapi apa. Kalo kuliah yang dinilai kan juga bukan pakaian saya, haha...

Hmm...

Karena kenyataannya nggak mungkin banget punya asisten pribadi, mungkin saya bisa mulai sedikit ngerubah penampilan dengan cara ngurangin "cuek" saya sama hal-hal yang hubungannya erat sama dunia cewe' kaya' fashion atau make-up. Boleh tuh sesekali buka majalah fashion buat referensi. Saya juga bisa mulai dengan sesekali nyalon (mungkin?), tapi 1 prinsip yang harus saya pegang:

PAKAILAH SESUATU YANG KAMU RASA NYAMAN DAN COCOK SAMA KEPRIBADIANMU. NGGAK PERLU MAKSAIN DIRI BUAT SESUATU YANG NGGAK COCOK BUATMU

XOXO

-chandni-

Give Your Heart a Break by Demi Lovato

The day I first met you
You told me you'd never fall in love
But now that I get you
I know fear is what it really was

Now here we are
So close yet so far
Haven't I passed the test
When will you realize
Baby, I'm not like the rest

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh yeah, yeah

On Sunday you went home alone
There were tears in your eyes
I called your cell phone, my love
But you did not reply

The world is ours if we want it
We can take it if you just take my hand
There's no turning back now
Baby, try to understand

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break

There's just so much you can take
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh yeah, yeah

When your lips are on my lips
And our hearts beat as one
But you slip out of my fingertips
Every time you run, whoa-oh-whoa-oh-oh

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong

Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break
(Let me give your heart a break)

'Cause you've been hurt before
I can see it in your eyes
You try to smile it away, some things you can't disguise
Don't wanna break your heart
Maybe, I can ease the ache, the ache
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break

There's just so much you can take
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break (your heart), your heart a break (a break)
Oh yeah, yeah

The day I first met you
You told me you'd never fall in love

Favorite Quotes

Sebagai pengguna Twitter yang terhitung aktif sejak taun 2009 (it means dari saya SMA kelas 2), saya bener-bener jadiin account Twitter saya sebagai "diary kedua" atau "tempat sampah" gitu deh istilahnya. Kalo pas lagi suwung atau nggak ada kerjaan, biasanya saya main Twitter trus update-update status ga jelas gitu. Kebanyakan update-an saya itu nggak penting banget deh pokoknya, haha...

Kalo nggak update status nggak jelas, saya biasanya cuma retweet quotes yang bagus-bagus (menurut saya). Ada beberapa quotes yang saya suka dari beberapa account Twitter yang saya follow belakangan ini, kaya' yang di bawah ini :

From @damnitstrue

• I don't have the prettiest face for you to see or the skinniest waist for you to hold, but I do have the biggest heart to love you with.
• When I think about you, I have to remind myself that if he wanted to talk to me then he would.
• #WhatMakeMeHappy Late night conversations with someone I love, the ones where I just can't say bye.
• Whenever I'm alone, I think. When I think, I remember. When I remember, I feel pain. When I feel pain, I cry. When I cry, I can't stop.
• Don't be a woman that needs a man, be the woman a man needs.
• Sometimes being strong means not holding back the tears, but letting them fall.
• Friends are like tissue.When tears fall down, they're always there to wipe the tears away.
• Tears is the only way how my eyes speak when my mouth can’t explain how things made my heart broken.

From @DiaryOnLove

• I fight with my parents. I don't always like them. They annoy me. But I will always love them. ♥
• Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting.
• She comes off as strong, but maybe she fell asleep crying. She acts like nothing is wrong, but maybe she's just really good at lying.

From @ihatequotes

• Love give you reasons to smile and good times to laugh about, but most of all love give you memories you could never forget.
• Friendship and love are great, but when you bring it together, that's when things start to get complicated.
• When you’re feeling lonely, look up at the moon. Somewhere, someone is staring at the same moon, feeling lonely too. ^^
• Sometimes, you mean nothing to someone who means everything to you. #ihatequotes
• Don't go for a guy who agrees with you on every thing, choose a guy who corrects you and makes you aware of your mistakes. #ihatequotes
• You deserve someone who can make you a better person without changing you into someone else. One who'll never give up on your weakness. -@AmandaAdriani
• It takes a special person to discover how special you are. #ihatequotes
• I'm still waiting for that guy. The one who will love me unconditionally and accept me for who I am. #ihatequotes
• Girls are unique, they want you to know how they feel but they don't want to tell you. ^^

From @Notebook

• S.I.N.G.L.E = Strong, Independent, Noticeable, Generous, Loving , Enlightened.
• When a girl falls asleep texting you, it doesn't mean you bore her. It just means she didn't want to end the conversation.
• The worst pain for a girl is when she smiles, just to keep the tears from falling and sleeps, just so she doesn't have to think about it.
• Appreciate those who love you. Help those who need you. Forgive those who hurt you. Forget those who leave you.
• When I miss you, I re-read our old conversations and smile.
• Always tell someone how you feel, because opportunities are lost in the blink of an eye but regret can last for a lifetime.
• It'’s sad when people you know become people you knew and how you used to be able to talk to them, and now you can barely look at them.

From @FemalesAdvice

• Parents, problems, friends, crushes, love, fake love, dating, responsibility, drama, heartache, failures, stress, happiness...It's life.

 From @wilzkanadi  

• If you don't want someone to play your feeling, stop depending your life and expectation on that person.

• People judge you because they don't understand you, and if they can't understand you, you don't need them.

From @TheLoveStories

• Sometimes you gotta accept the fact that certain things will NEVER go back to how they use to be. #MOVEON
• Letting go of someone you care for is hardest thing to do, but its better to let go than to hold on to something that was never meant to be.
• There are 3 great things in life: 1) You love someone. 2) That someone loves you back. 3) Number 1 & 2 happen at the same time. #TLS
• Friends are like second family you make for yourself. Friendship makes you feel home though you’re not at home. #TLS

 From @pepatah

• Jika seseorang tulus mencintaimu, dia akan berusaha tuk bisa berada dalam hidupmu. Jika tidak, kamu sebaiknya jangan menunggu. #bukupepatah

Well...itu hanya "sebagian kecil" quotation yang saya retweet di account profile Twitter saya. Aslinya sih lebih banyak lagi karena honestly saya getol banget mencet tombol retweet tiap kali buka account Twitter. Ada quotes yang menurut saya "bagus" atau "ngena", ya saya asal retweet aja, hehe... Tapi nggak menutup kemungkinan juga saya retweet kalo quote-nya itu kebetulan sama kaya' apa yang lagi saya alamin waktu itu. Atau bisa juga kalo mau deliver something to someone yang saya nggak bisa ngomong langsung, ya pake retweet juga, hahaha...

Sometimes retweet-ing is fun... :)

XOXO

-chandni- 

B-e-a-utiful by Megan Nicole

She read me a note he left on her bed

Snuck in her room right after she left

And put petals on the ground

Her head on his shoulder, they walk down the hall

I have to wonder, will I ever fall in love?

And where is he now?

She's with him, I'm in the backseat

Know it's not right, but it hurts when they're laughing

I've never been where they are

I wanna be blown away, wanna be swept off my feet

I wanna be the one who makes it hard for me to breathe

I wanna be lost in love, I wanna be your dream come true

Wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you

Just call me beautiful, call me beautiful

Call me beautiful, call me b-e-a-utiful

Friday night, she wore his jersey to the game

In the front row, screaming out his name

As he turns to her and smiles

Everywhere I look, people holding hands

When am I gonna get my chance at love?

My chance at love

Cause she's with him, I'm still hurting

Try to pretend but it's not working

I just wanna be where they are

I wanna be blown away, wanna be swept off my feet

I wanna be the one who makes it hard for me to breathe

I wanna be lost in love, I wanna be your dream come true

Wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you

Just call me beautiful, call me beautiful

Call me beautiful, call me b-e-a-utiful

My heart is waiting for your love

My hand is waiting for your touch

My lips just wanna be kissed by you

I wanna be blown away, wanna be swept off my feet

I wanna be the one who makes it hard for me to breathe

I wanna be lost in love, I wanna be your dream come true

Wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you

Just call me beautiful, call me beautiful

Call me beautiful, call me b-e-a-utiful

Beautiful, call me beautiful

Call me beautiful, call me b-e-a-utiful

Cerita di Balik Nama

Chandni Devi Septiana...

Yup...itu nama lengkap saya. Nama panggilan saya sebenernya singkat dan gampang banget diinget. "Nana". Cuma gara-gara nama itu udah umum, banyak banget yang punya dan biasanya bikin bingung orang-orang yang manggil saya, akhirnya sekarang saya lebih sering dipanggil "Chandni" daripada "Nana". Lagipula banyak yang suka "protes", kok nama panggilannya malah "Nana".

Kebanyakan temen-temen seangkatan yang panggil nama "Chandni" akan langsung gampang pronounce begitu mereka denger nama saya satu atau dua kali, tapi buat para dosen dan temen-temen yang nggak terlalu kenal saya biasanya mereka bingung kalo di kelas mau manggil nama saya pake daftar absen. Tiap kali manggil, pasti salah. Macem-macem gitu deh, tapi kebanyakan huruf D-nya nggak kebaca, jadi "Channi" gitu. Kalo udah gini justru malah temen-temen yang ngoreksi dosen saya, hehehe...

Actually cara baca nama depan saya lumayan gampang, kok. Bacanya jadi can-de-ni. Huruf E habis huruf D dibaca sama kaya' pronounce "empat".

Well...tapi saya maklum sih kalo nama depan saya susah banget dibacanya, soalnya juga bukan nama yang umum di Indonesia. Ada "sejarah"-nya kenapa saya sampe dikasih nama "Chandni Devi Septiana" itu dan kenapa saya malah dipanggil "Nana".

Jadi, dulu akhir taun 80'an atau awal 90'an gitu (saya lupa sih tepatnya kapan), ada film Hindi yang judulnya Chandni. Nah...berhubung daddy saya suka banget nonton film Hindi dan film Chandni ini jadi film favoritnya daddy waktu itu, jadilah waktu saya lahir dikasih nama itu. Nama tengah saya, "Devi", juga diambil dari nama pemain cewe' yang main film itu (walopun "Devi" sebenernya nama umum juga di Indonesia). Kalo "Septiana" itu nama yang dikasih nenek saya, soalnya saya lahir bulan September. Mungkin juga nama saya dikasih "Septiana" biar masih ada kesan Indonesia-nya, nggak melulu nama Hindi, hehe...

Pas saya kecil, sebenernya saya dipanggil "Ana". Ya dari "Septiana" itu tadi, lah. Tapi pas umur 2 taun, waktu saya pindah ke rumah kakek buyut (yang sekarang jadi rumah saya), beliau ini agak "susah" bilang "Ana". Agak ngeganjel gimana...gitu. Seringnya manggil malah "Nana"..."Nana" gitu. Mungkin beliau mikirnya lebih gampang kali, ya? Ya udah...dari situ akhirnya malah jadi kebiasaan, sodara-sodara juga ikutan manggil "Nana", akhirnya panggilan itu yang jadi panggilan saya sampe bertahun-tahun.

Dulu tiap kali saya ditanya, "Chandni tuh nama bahasa apa sih?" saya masih bisa jawab kalo itu nama bahasa Hindi, tapi begitu ditanya "Chandni artinya apa?" atau "Maknanya Chandni itu apa?" saya selalu bingung dan nggak tau mau jawab apa. Biasanya saya cuma nyengir sambil jawab, "Nggak tau, hehe...". Begitu makin banyak orang yang tanya, akhirnya saya tanya sama orang tua. Dari daddy akhirnya saya tau kalo "Chandni" itu meaning-nya "bulan", udah gitu aja. Tapi beberapa waktu lalu saya found out kalo ternyata the real meaning-nya "Chandni" itu "cahaya bulan" or "moonlight". Nggak tau mana yang paling bener, yang penting masih ada hubungannya sama "bulan", hehe..

Saya nggak masalah orang mau manggil apa, as long as nama panggilan itu masih ada hubungannya sama my real name. Kadang saya suka kesel kalo ada yang manggil saya pake nama yang nggak ada hubungannya sama sekali sama nama lengkap saya (kecuali panggilan "sayang" dari temen-temen deket atau nama yang selalu bawa-bawa domisili saya lho ya). Kalo dipanggil pake nama yang nggak bener, saya akan milih buat nggak noleh atau nggak nanggepin. Biarin. Nama bagus-bagus kok diganti-ganti gitu aja.

Mau manggil Chandni atau Nana, boleh. Mau manggil Devi juga boleh, tapi jarang banget yang manggil saya Devi. So far cuma daddy aja yang masih terbiasa manggil saya Devi. Cuma untuk sekarang ini, saya malah lebih prefer dipanggil Chandni daripada Nana, soalnya temen seangkatan saya di kampus ada yang namanya Nana juga. Unik dan biar beda aja jadinya, hehe... ^_^

 

XOXO

-chandni-

R.A.N.D.O.M Things

Mendadak ngerasa random gara-gara sepi nggak ada orang di rumah, hehe…

Gara-gara random itu makanya jadi kepikiran nge-post hal random juga :D

Ada banyak hal-hal yang aku suka, yang bikin aku selalu happy, kaya' yang ada di bawah ini:

Ø      Aku suka WARNA BIRU

warna ini selalu ngasih kesan "adem" tiap kali ngeliatnya

Ø      Aku suka SPAGHETTI sama FRENCH FRIES

spaghetti ini yummy dan nggak bikin cepet laper lagi & french fries udah favorit banget dari aku SD ^_^

Ø      Aku suka STRAWBERRY JUICE

nggak akan bisa nolak kalo dikasih minuman yang satu ini

Ø      Aku suka CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM

dessert yang satu ini selalu berhasil ngembaliin mood aku yang lagi jelek jadi bagus lagi

Ø      Aku suka STRAWBERRY

rasanya yang asem-asem manis selalu bikin pengen nambah terus, hehe..

Ø      Aku suka SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS & PATRICK STAR

walopun mereka kadang-kadang trouble maker, tapi persahabatan mereka kental banget

Ø      Aku suka NONTON FILM (especially genre drama romantic-comedy)

nonton film bisa ngurangin stress kalo pas lagi galau atau ngilangin suntuk pas lagi sendirian di rumah

Ø      Aku suka NGEMIL

kasih aku cemilan yang kriuk-kriuk, dijamin bakalan abis dalam waktu singkat, hihihi…

Ø      Aku suka KATY PERRY

lucu dan excited aja ngeliat penyanyi cewe’ yang satu ini, apalagi dia suka gonta-ganti style rambut. Lagu-lagunya juga bagus

Ø      Aku suka CODY SIMPSON

yang lain kena euphoria Justin Bieber, aku malah kena euphoria dia karena buat aku dia keliatan lebih “cowo’” daripada Bieber (sorry to say…, namanya juga personal taste)

Ø      Aku suka THE CORRS

grup musik yang bagus menurut aku karena 4 bersaudara bisa pegang alat musik semua dan lagu-lagunya paling banyak aku hafal

Ø      Aku suka NO AIR

lagu mellow yang paling sering aku play di handphone & laptop karena selalu dapet feel-nya

Ø      Aku suka SUPER JUNIOR & GIRLS’ GENERATION

awal mula aku kena demam Korea (K-Pop) ya gara-gara boyband sama girlband itu. Lagu-lagunya asik, dance-nya keren-keren, personel-personelnya juga “bening-bening” :D

Ø      Aku suka INCEPTION

walopun aku paling suka sama film genre drama romantic-comedy, tapi malah film ini (yang genre-nya beda jauh banget dari yang aku suka) yang bikin aku nonton di bioskop 2 kali, ngopy filmnya ke laptop dan paling sering aku tonton di antara film-film lain saking senengnya sama jalan ceritanya yang “mikir banget”

Ø      Aku suka LEONARDO DICAPRIO

aktor yang aktingnya selalu keren di setiap film yang dia peranin

Ø      Aku suka BLAKE LIVELY

salah satu aktris yang udah cantik, aktingnya keren, fashionable pula.. ^_^

Ø      Aku suka GOSSIP GIRL

serial yang paling aku suka dari pertama kali nonton. Cerita di balik friendship para karakternya dibikin nggak monoton dan nggak diduga

Ø      Aku suka NEW YORK

well…aku emang belum pernah kesana, tapi at least aku suka sama “keramaian” dan “kesibukan”-nya kota ini

Ø      Aku suka CHEERLEADER

maksudnya bukan aku yang do it, tapi aku suka ngeliat pertunjukan cheerleader. Seru aja ngeliat gerakan-gerakan kompak dan suka ngerasa “wow” ngeliat cewe’-cewe’ dilempar-lempar, hehe…

Ø      Aku suka (lebih tepatnya “ngefans berat”) sama CHOI SIWON

basically aku suka ngeliatin cowo’ yang selalu keliatan rapi, macem eksekutif-eksekutif muda gitu. CUMA NGELIATIN DOANK (padahal akunya sendiri messy)

Seriously, tulisan ini bener-bener random :D

XOXO

-chandni-

The Confession

Beberapa hari ini saya bener-bener ngerasa nggak mood di rumah. Ada aja hal-hal yang bikin saya nggak betah buat stay lama-lama di rumah. Salah satunya adalah: KESEPIAN.

Well...saya udah pernah nyebutin kalo saya anak satu-satunya or anak tunggal, kan? Praktis, "temen" saya di rumah ya cuma orang tua saya sendiri. Nggak ada kakak, nggak ada ade'. Oke...emang biasanya ada Risti, si anak tetangga, yang suka dateng ke rumah nemenin saya, tapi sekarang dia udah jarang main ke rumah sejak ibu sama kakak cowo'nya kerja. Dia harus gantiin tugas ibunya ngurus rumah kaya' masak, nyuci, bersih-bersih, dan lain-lain. Komplit deh, saya jadi makin kesepian tiap kali balik ke rumah :(

Saya bukannya nyesel atau nggak bersyukur dilahirin jadi anak tunggal. So far saya bersyukur banget jadi anak tunggal. Dengan jadi anak tunggal, apalagi orang tua saya juga masih lengkap, saya nggak akan khawatir kasih sayang orang tua saya "terbagi" sama yang lain. Semua ya pasti cuma buat saya.

Satu-satunya hal yang bikin saya agak, apa ya istilahnya? Mm...kecewa kaya'nya, cuma cara orang tua saya nunjukin kasih sayang mereka ke saya.

Orang tua saya dua-duanya sibuk, sama-sama kerja di kota juga. Mami bahkan jadi kepala sekolah di TK negeri satu-satunya di kota itu sejak taun 2005. Selanjutnya udah bisa ditebak. Kerjaan numpuk, mondar-mandir ke kantor dinas, dan pulang sore bahkan malem udah jadi rutinitas mami sekarang. Kalo daddy, walopun bukan kepala sekolah, tetep aja tiap hari selalu nemenin mami, nungguin mami selesai kerja trus habis itu baru pulang bareng.

Rutinitas seperti itu yang bikin mereka jadi tinggal punya sedikit waktu di rumah. Sering-seringnya kalo udah nyampe rumah, habis istirahat bentar, ya langsung tidur. Interaksi sama saya jadi dikit...banget. Yang kaya' gini ini yang bikin saya kesel.

Ngeselinnya lagi tuh kalo mereka udah tau interaksi sama saya jadi dikit, tapi mereka selalu gunain waktu kosong di rumah buat ngomongin masalah kerjaan mereka. Semacem waktu seharian tuh kurang buat ngomongin kerjaan --"

Saya pernah bilang kalo saya terbiasa sendiri dan jadi "individualis" kalo lagi di rumah gara-gara situasi di atas, tapi kadang saya juga jengkel, sebel, kecewa kalo terus-terusan sendiri kaya' gitu. Gimana pun juga, saya masih tinggal satu atap sama orang tua saya. Interaksi sama mereka itu perlu banget, apalagi kalo pas saya lagi pengen cerita-cerita atau istilahnya curhat gitu lah. Kenyataannya tiap kali saya pengen cerita, awalnya emang didengerin, tapi lama-lama nggak digagas juga, dianggep nggak serius. Malah sering kali justru saya yang dipojokin, bukannya dikasih solusi. Yang kaya' gini ini yang bikin saya jengkel, sebel, kecewa sampe akhirnya saya jadi bad mood nggak karuan.

Kadang saya jealous juga sama temen-temen saya. Mereka orang tuanya ada yang lebih sibuk daripada orang tua saya, tapi nyatanya mereka masih bisa tetep deket kaya' sahabat sendiri. Kalo anaknya mau cerita, didengerin, dikasih solusi tanpa harus pake acara mojokin segala. Bukan cuma itu aja, temen-temen saya selalu punya waktu jalan-jalan atau hang-out sama keluarga mereka buat bikin mereka lebih akrab kaya' wisata kemana...gitu. Saya? Mm...boro-boro jalan-jalan, kalo bukan karena ada family gathering atau belanja bulanan, kita nggak pernah jalan-jalan bertiga. Alesannya pasti selalu sama: SIBUK. Bosen juga saya dengerinnya --"

So far saya akuin emang orang tua saya selalu menuhin semua kebutuhan saya. Nggak maksud mau nyombong juga, tapi orang tua saya termasuk "royal". Apa-apa selalu dikasih, walopun kadang harus nunggu juga. Kalo nggak bisa bentuk barang, ya dikasih uang trus saya suruh beli sendiri. Saya juga jadi nggak pernah ngerasa kekurangan dan saya bersyukur banget karena itu. Cuma masalahnya, nggak semua bisa dibeli pake uang. Saya emang butuh barang-barang yang saya mau itu, tapi saya LEBIH BUTUH waktu mereka buat saya. Waktu nggak bisa dibeli pake uang.

Udah tau saya "sendirian", tapi at least mereka mau donk, dengerin saya sedikiiittt...aja. Saya pengen ngerasain apa yang temen-temen saya rasain di rumah mereka. Saya pengen ngerasain gimana serunya jalan-jalan atau belanja sama mami. Saya pengen ngerasain gimana senengnya bikin sesuatu sama daddy. Saya pengen ngerasain gimana ditenangin sama kedua orang tua saya waktu saya ada masalah trus curhat sama mereka. Bukan cuma uang yang saya mau. BUKAN. Saya ngerti mereka kerja keras nyari uang mati-matian itu demi saya doank, tapi nggak seharusnya juga mereka jadiin alesan itu buat "menjauh" dari saya. Tiap kali mikirin ini saya jadi sedih sendiri, bahkan nggak jarang juga saya malah jadi cengeng :'(

Hal semacem itu yang bikin saya nggak betah di rumah akhir-akhir ini dan bikin saya pengen out. Kepikiran buat saya mau kost, tapi waktu saya ngomongin ini ke orang tua, lagi-lagi saya dicegah. Mami bahkan bilang, 

"Trus yang mau nemenin mami siapa, de'?"

Dibilang begitu sama mami saya cuma mbatin,

"Giliran mau out, malah tanya siapa yang mau nemenin mami. Kemarin-kemarin saya di rumah terus, sendirian, yang nemenin siapa?"

Masa' iya tiap kali mau cerita atau curhat saya selalu ngerepotin temen-temen saya? Yang ada malah mereka sendiri yang bosen dengerin saya ngoceh mulu. Saya juga jadi nggak enak. Gimana pun juga, bukan cuma saran temen-temen aja yang saya perlu, tapi juga saran orang tua :(

It's okay kalo mau jadi individualis, tapi ada kalanya saya juga pengen "ditemenin". Saya nggak hidup sendirian, kan? Wajar kalo saya juga pengen ditemenin biar saya nggak kesepian terus-terusan... :(

XOXO
-chandni-

The Danger behind the Beauty

Have you seen a model or an actress walking the catwalk or red carpet? What do you think makes them look stylish and taller? You can’t answer the questions above without mention high-heels.

Victoria Beckham

Blake Lively

High-heels are a kind of footwear and already famous since an ancient Egypt period. The differences between ancient Egypt’s shoes and modern high heels are their purpose. Ancient Egyptians wore high-heels to protect their feet from mud and dust when they had a fight, modern people wears it as one part of their lifestyle, especially in fashion. From year to year, high-heels are still prevalent in the fashion world. Public figures, especially models and actresses, like Blake Lively and Victoria Beckham love to wear this kind of footwear whenever they appear in public.

The cute and stylish high-heeled footwear has become one part of women lifestyle around the world, including in Indonesia. There are some reasons why they choose this kind of footwear. Some women said that they wear high-heels to follow trend, so that they will not be mocked or considered as “weird”, or just to increase their confidence. Most girls and women said that if they wear high-heels, the women will look feminine, stylish or beautiful.

It is true that high-heels can help to raise the heel of woman’s feet so that they will look higher than before because this kind of footwear usually have heels which are at least 5 centimeters tall.

Because there are many reasons to wear high-heels, recently many women make high-heels as their daily footwear. Wherever they go: to the office, to the campus, to the party, or just shopping at the mall, they wear high-heels. But actually, they don’t really know the danger behind the beautiful high-heels.

Even though this kind of shoes looks good to promote the appearance of girls or women, the risks that they must bear from the habit of wearing high-heels are big and quite "horrible".

The feet are the most important part to support the body. Without feet, it’s almost impossible for humans to stand. That’s why footwear selection is important and must be decided based on appropriateness and comfort. So, the most important thing in footwear selection is comfortable and health, not appearance.

The effect of the use of high-heels shoes regularly also can cause foot disorders and prolonged pain.

Based on my experience, although high-heels are stylish and improve my confidence, sometimes I feel hurt, especially at my toes. Sometimes I also lose my balance when I have to go to the higher floor without the lift but use stairs so that I always feel I am about to fall. It’s quite frustrating because I have to hold the stair rail tightly.

This situation often happens when women wear high-heels. My experience is just one example. Besides the stairs, it’s possible for a woman to hold her friend or her husband’s arm. That situation happens because women’s feet are being forced to be in an “abnormal” condition for a long time. It causes an uncomfortable feeling on their feet so that they feel uncomfortable while walking.

Not only that, I often feel pain at the back of my legs after wearing my high-heels. Usually I just smear an analgesic balm on my legs whenever I get pain and it always works to calm the pain, although it's just temporary.

Another serious problem arising from the use of high-heels regularly is a swelling or deformity in the toes. It is also known as a “bunion”. To cure it, the only thing that people can do is surgery. It's totally sounds horrible :(

I also read in another article that shoes can cause constriction of blood vessels and oxygen supply to the nerves and brain. So it can cause a headache and make a person’s mood become unstable. Honestly I’m scared because seems like this statement is true. I've ever experienced that too.

Recently, I have already considered that using high-heels regularly is bad for my health. I try to wear high-heels rarely, except for special occasion such as wedding party. I prefer to wear flat shoes, sneakers, or sandals when I go to campus.

When I'm being "forced" to wear high heels, if I have some free time, usually I will take off my high-heels for a moment. That’s why I can give my feet some time to rest so that they don’t feel painful. Another suggestion, maybe some women can change the height of their heels. If usually they wear 5 to 7 centimeters heeled shoes, they can choose kitten heels shoes with 3 centimeters heels

Kitten heels

I hope my explanation based on my experiences above can be used as good solution for some problems that might happen because of regularly usage of high-heels.

One important thing that woman must remember, don’t sacrifice health just for temporary beauty :)

XOXO

-chandni-

A Story to Remember

Actually I can’t remember exactly, when I could read and write for the first time. As far as I remember, before entering school (kindergarten), I could read just some easy Indonesian words. If I’m not mistaken, it was when I still 4 (four) years old.

I was born into a teacher’s family. Both of my parents are kindergarten teachers. That’s why I grew up with some things that related to kindergarten such as story books, toys, spelling books, etc. When I was 3 (three) years old, my parents often asked me to go to their school so that I could join their class. In 1995, pre-school had not been too popular.

Pre-school was different with kindergarten. In Indonesia we called it as “kelompok bermain” and people said that pre-school was an introduction for kids before they enter kindergarten. Only children younger than 4 years were allowed to enroll in this school. Actually I was old enough to enroll pre-school, but because the distance between my parent’s kindergarten and pre-school were really far, they canceled it. That’s why, my parents took the initiative to take me to their school, although not everyday (usually two or three times per week).

When I didn’t join their class, I just stayed at home, waiting for them to come home. I was so happy when they got back from their work. They often brought me spelling books, story books, and kid’s magazines. I didn’t know, I had an interest in books since I was a child. Before I could read, I liked looking to story books, just because there were a lot of pictures in them. Every night before I went to bed, I always asked my dad to read them to me.

After a long time, I became bored. I wanted to read the books by myself. Beside that, I also wanted to write after I saw my dad writing a letter for his friend. Fortunately my dad understood it. After he got back from his work, every afternoon, he always taught me to read. Unfortunately he didn’t teach me how to write because he thought that it was not the right time for me to write.

First, he taught me with spelling books. I remember, my first word that I read was, “ibu” (spelled as “i-bu”). It was one of the best memories I’ve ever had, hahaha... But actually that was not the first time for me to speak, because I could speak since I was (almost) 1 year old, although it was not a clear word. As far as I remember, my first word that I said was my nickname, “Nana”.

I remember, inside the spelling books, there were a lot of attractive pictures, such as animals, numbers, family, and many more. Under each picture, there was a word that describe the picture. For example, under the picture of a mother, there was a word “i-bu” so I had to read it as “ibu”.

I’m so thankful because I was a fast learner (I don’t mean to be arrogant, but that’s the fact). In just a one or two weeks period, I could read fluently. Of course my parents were so proud of me, especially my dad. He taught me intensively to read everyday.

In 1996, when I was 4 years old, my parents signed me up for kindergarten. They didn’t sign me up to the school where they worked because they didn’t want me to be spoiled.

In kindergarten I learned many things (but not writing), not only played with my friends. My teacher taught me and my friends to sing and clap our hands. I also played with children building blocks, spelled some simple words, and learned something that my dad never taught before. How to write!

I was so excited when my teacher taught me to write for the first time. First, she taught me how to hold a pencil correctly. After that, she taught me how to make a line on the paper. At the beginning, it felt difficult to write because it was something new for me (and my friends too, actually). But after some time, finally I could do it. I was not only made a line on the paper, but my teacher also taught me to write some words and letters, including our nickname.

After my teacher taught me to write at school, I tried to practice it by myself at home. When I found any difficulties, I asked my dad to guide me and he would be there to help me.

About 6 months ago I asked my dad, how did he learn to read and write? Did he use the similar method to teach me? The answer is, yes. His method to read and write was similar to mine. The only difference between me and him was just our age when we could read and write for the first time. I could read and write before 6, but my dad could do that when he was 7 years old.

Based on my experience above, I think the biggest influence was my dad, because he taught me everything. The second was myself, because I felt that read and write were important.

XOXO

-chandni-